Whew the last week has flown by! I hate when I don't get a chance to blog...it usually means too many thoughts are left swimming around in my head, which never makes for a good time! We are officially only a few work days away from our first mama-and-Parker Summer, and one could guess how excited I am about that!
I will say, it is amazing how much becoming a parent plays with your mind. On one hand, it is the most insecure and terrified I have ever felt in my life. There is a constant debate happening in my mind. Is ____ what is best for Parker? What if daycare is better at keeping him on a routine than me? Will I be able to ____? How much longer should I pump? What if I don't pump enough milk? and on and on and on....
On the other hand, I know with such certainty that Parker is the love of my life. He makes me SO excited for continuing to build our little family, and the sweets are so much sweeter with him around. Those who know me would not believe how I DON'T mind getting up early with him, just because I get to see his smile every morning. I feel pride because he is so smart, that he smiles when he sees the shadow replaced by light when the door opens to his room in the morning...knowing that we are coming for him. Ultimately, I am excited for many more "firsts" this summer, even if they come with some unsure moments, or even mistakes.
This past weekend, we enjoyed a visit with Nonna! She came to see Parker and snuggle him, which he always loves. I will say that Chase is particularly needy when this happens...thinking that people are there to see him instead of Parker. We ate some great food, went to see Auntie Morgan in her new apartment in the city, checked out the italian and japanese stores, and relaxed. We also got to see Ms. Carol two weekends in a row! How lucky are we!
The rest of this week should be filled with friends, family, and fun. GiGi's Playhouse 5K here we come! Parker, Mommy, and Daddy will hopefully have a big team to walk with :)
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