This time last year....(Part One)

The "at this time last year" thoughts have pushed through the flood gates and are just washing over me!  I rocked Parker to sleep just now (3 hours late, thank-you-very-much-teething!), and thought back to all of the emotions I was feeling a week and a day before Parker was born.  I had anxiety about his well-being, not really knowing what was to lie ahead, and such excitement.  I LOVED every doctor's appointment, and relished in the idea of being closer to becoming a Mommy.  I felt such accomplishment with every week of pregnancy I got through.  Six days before he was born, I was told that I "wouldn't make it to the next appointment."  I was so excited, sitting at work, wondering when it would finally happen.  

This time last year, I couldn't have possibly imagined how much richer my life would become.  I love that Parker's birthday is in November...it is the month of Thanks.  There is nothing I could possibly do to express my gratitude and thankfulness that out of all of the people on this Earth, I am the one lucky enough to be Parker's Mommy.  It is the hardest and most amazing experience of my life.

This time last year...I was dreaming of how life would be with my baby boy.  My life is nothing like that one that I was imagining...and on some scarce days, that is hard for me to grasp or accept.  But I was given the life that's meant for me.  And in that life, my baby boy
is everything.