Love

It has taken a few days, but I finally have been able to calm down a little bit and just enjoy my baby.  He is so sweet and feisty!  We were snuggling and watching a movie this afternoon and I would just catch him staring at me --and when I would look at him and smile, he smiled right back.  It sounds so minor, but when it is your baby that recognizes your face, it is like winning the lottery.  

I was always annoyed during pregnancy, when people made comments about how you become a parent and give up your freedom, or never sleep in again, double the chores, or some-other-meaningless-complaint.  I just felt like it was a terrible way to comment on the life someone was about to bring into the world.

Yes, having a baby is hard, and the added responsibilities can be difficult to juggle, but I can't help but be thankful.  I have a beautiful baby that I just adore...and no extra chore, insurance battle, sleepless night, messy home, or extra chromosomes can take that away for even a second. 

I look at this smiling face amidst all of the hardships and wouldn't change it for the world.